Thank you EVERYONE who has prayed for us and supported us - in all sorts of ways.
I am THRILLED to report good scans!!!
A full report will be in next week and not all tests are back....but the oncologist said he would see me NEXT YEAR!! Six month check up - AWESOME!
God Rocks!
Tired, but thankful.
Will write more later.
Triann
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Verses of the Day
Sometimes God shows us, tells us, communicates to us a theme or a verse over and over and over to get our attention. Since Saturday I have had some themes and verses He has been shouting at me and I thought I would share - perhaps you are in need of hearing the same messages =)
I am loved by God - unconditionally (and so are you!!)
I cannot earn it or even fathom its depth with my finite mind.
HOPE. HOPE. HOPE.
And Prayer. I can be a prayer warrior for myself, and that's OK. It's not selfish. He wants me to dialogue with Him. That's what I was designed for - a relationship with the Creator. And although prayer does not need to be formal (as I was reminded - again - in the car while listening to Stephen Curtis Chapman sing "Let us Pray")
He also desires for us to set aside some REAL quiet time with him - even if it is 10 minutes!
To talk with Him, give our full attention to Him.
Yes, even with a 3 yr old in the house!
The verses I continue to be led to are
"You are fearfully and wonderfully made". Psalm 139:14
"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11
"Be Joyful in HOPE, Patient in affliction, faithful in PRAYER." Romans 12:12
I wanted to have some clarification on a couple of words. I know the general gist, but felt compelled to truly define the words.
One word was AFFLICTION.
Dictionary.com states that it is a noun meaning
1. a state of pain, distress, or grief; misery
2. a cause of mental or bodily pain, as sickness, loss, calamity, or persecution.
Synonyms: mishap, trouble, tribulation, calamity, catastrophe, disaster. Affliction, adversity, misfortune, trial refer to an event or circumstance that is hard to bear.
Got it.
Secondly DECLARES.
Sounds Kingly (probably because He is, but just needed to know)
To make known formally or officially, to make known or state clearly, esp. in explicit or formal terms
To state emphatically or authoritatively; affirm, to announce officially; proclaim
To reveal or make manifest; show
Not only is the Lord making it known, he is SHOWING us that what he says is true (manifest - readily perceived by the eye or the understanding; evident; obvious; apparent, show plainly: to prove; put beyond doubt or question)
LOVE IT! What wonderful promises.
This is where I find peace. This is how I have Hope. This is how I 'Keep Moving Forward'
The Good News is here, the great news is to come...
I am loved by God - unconditionally (and so are you!!)
I cannot earn it or even fathom its depth with my finite mind.
HOPE. HOPE. HOPE.
And Prayer. I can be a prayer warrior for myself, and that's OK. It's not selfish. He wants me to dialogue with Him. That's what I was designed for - a relationship with the Creator. And although prayer does not need to be formal (as I was reminded - again - in the car while listening to Stephen Curtis Chapman sing "Let us Pray")
He also desires for us to set aside some REAL quiet time with him - even if it is 10 minutes!
To talk with Him, give our full attention to Him.
Yes, even with a 3 yr old in the house!
The verses I continue to be led to are
"You are fearfully and wonderfully made". Psalm 139:14
"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11
"Be Joyful in HOPE, Patient in affliction, faithful in PRAYER." Romans 12:12
I wanted to have some clarification on a couple of words. I know the general gist, but felt compelled to truly define the words.
One word was AFFLICTION.
Dictionary.com states that it is a noun meaning
1. a state of pain, distress, or grief; misery
2. a cause of mental or bodily pain, as sickness, loss, calamity, or persecution.
Synonyms: mishap, trouble, tribulation, calamity, catastrophe, disaster. Affliction, adversity, misfortune, trial refer to an event or circumstance that is hard to bear.
Got it.
Secondly DECLARES.
Sounds Kingly (probably because He is, but just needed to know)
To make known formally or officially, to make known or state clearly, esp. in explicit or formal terms
To state emphatically or authoritatively; affirm, to announce officially; proclaim
To reveal or make manifest; show
Not only is the Lord making it known, he is SHOWING us that what he says is true (manifest - readily perceived by the eye or the understanding; evident; obvious; apparent, show plainly: to prove; put beyond doubt or question)
LOVE IT! What wonderful promises.
This is where I find peace. This is how I have Hope. This is how I 'Keep Moving Forward'
The Good News is here, the great news is to come...
Monday, July 20, 2009
One more week and lab results
My labs results were disappointing, but not surprising.
I am actually down 2 points. =(
I have been really sick with GI side effects plus the horrid can't-get-out-of-bed dizziness and the oncologist has dropped me down to 10 pills a day, even though my numbers are lower.
We head down to MD Anderson Cancer Center Next Tuesday.
Please keep us in your prayers. Great results. Safe Trip.
My mom will be flying down Tuesday to play with the kids while Eric and I are at the hospital. We will head south directly from the airport.
I am actually down 2 points. =(
I have been really sick with GI side effects plus the horrid can't-get-out-of-bed dizziness and the oncologist has dropped me down to 10 pills a day, even though my numbers are lower.
We head down to MD Anderson Cancer Center Next Tuesday.
Please keep us in your prayers. Great results. Safe Trip.
My mom will be flying down Tuesday to play with the kids while Eric and I are at the hospital. We will head south directly from the airport.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Only 2 More Weeks
We are headed back to MD Anderson in two weeks! I am looking forward to the trip because I would like to be able to breathe a sigh of relief until the next visit. (Keep those prayers coming!)
However...there is also the anxiety (fear) that things won't be OK.
Eric and I have the conversation often that I don't have cancer, I'm simply on chemo.
There has not been a sign of cancer since the tumor was removed in October - PRAISE the LORD!!
However, I am still on high doses of chemo and have still not reached the 'optimal' level of the drug in my system.
I have had a really rough month with getting my pills in. Stomach aches, stomach cramps, nausea, vomiting, GI issues galore. I don't know if it is the heat or the stress of the move, the kids and their medical things recently. Perhaps it is simply the meds. Hmmm. Or a combo of it all. I am now getting the dizziness back in full force like I had a few months ago. Ugh. But wanting, NEEDING more time with my family is my driving force to continue to take the Mitotane.
Adrenal Cancer is RARE. Stage 2 Adrenal Cancer is VERY rare! A tremendous gift that that this terrible disease was found so early! Thank you God and thank you Daniel.
I actually find it difficult to scold him when he jumps on me, but I have to. Especially since my incision site is still tender!
I really believe that God can hand me many more years here on this earth with Eric and Emily and Daniel.
But it is such a mental game.
Please pray for my overall health. My medication intake. My upcoming scans. My family - it is really taxing on Eric and so hard for the kids to understand why mommy is always tired and not feeling well. Emily told me today that she wanted me to get some rest so I didn't get sick again. Daniel has always been clingy, but it is getting ridiculous. I hate that my kiddos, esp Emily, are being forced to grow up too fast. I hate cancer. But I love the Lord and I know He loves me. That He cares about my family. I need to continue to put my trust and my hope in Him alone.
I am up tonight with heartburn and an upset stomach. But I am so tired and dizzy it is hard to stay upright. Now what do I do??
I suppose I will sign off for now and catch up with y'all later.
My Mom will be flying down for this trip to Houston to keep the kiddos entertained while Eric and I are at the hospital for long and grueling days! I am thankful she is able to take the time off and come help. I know it is tough on my parents to not be closer.
Thank you -again - to Amy and Christophe for donating hotel points for our stay.
Thank you to my Mops group for the great freezer meals this month.
Thank you to my in-laws for giving me a couple of naps while they are here visiting.
Thank you to Belinda for taking the kids on separate outings. For making them feel special and giving them a chance to get out of the craziness for awhile.
I am certain there are others I am missing, so thank you to all of you who have been praying for us and lending a hand. We couldn't do it without you.
Goodnight.
However...there is also the anxiety (fear) that things won't be OK.
Eric and I have the conversation often that I don't have cancer, I'm simply on chemo.
There has not been a sign of cancer since the tumor was removed in October - PRAISE the LORD!!
However, I am still on high doses of chemo and have still not reached the 'optimal' level of the drug in my system.
I have had a really rough month with getting my pills in. Stomach aches, stomach cramps, nausea, vomiting, GI issues galore. I don't know if it is the heat or the stress of the move, the kids and their medical things recently. Perhaps it is simply the meds. Hmmm. Or a combo of it all. I am now getting the dizziness back in full force like I had a few months ago. Ugh. But wanting, NEEDING more time with my family is my driving force to continue to take the Mitotane.
Adrenal Cancer is RARE. Stage 2 Adrenal Cancer is VERY rare! A tremendous gift that that this terrible disease was found so early! Thank you God and thank you Daniel.
I actually find it difficult to scold him when he jumps on me, but I have to. Especially since my incision site is still tender!
I really believe that God can hand me many more years here on this earth with Eric and Emily and Daniel.
But it is such a mental game.
Please pray for my overall health. My medication intake. My upcoming scans. My family - it is really taxing on Eric and so hard for the kids to understand why mommy is always tired and not feeling well. Emily told me today that she wanted me to get some rest so I didn't get sick again. Daniel has always been clingy, but it is getting ridiculous. I hate that my kiddos, esp Emily, are being forced to grow up too fast. I hate cancer. But I love the Lord and I know He loves me. That He cares about my family. I need to continue to put my trust and my hope in Him alone.
I am up tonight with heartburn and an upset stomach. But I am so tired and dizzy it is hard to stay upright. Now what do I do??
I suppose I will sign off for now and catch up with y'all later.
My Mom will be flying down for this trip to Houston to keep the kiddos entertained while Eric and I are at the hospital for long and grueling days! I am thankful she is able to take the time off and come help. I know it is tough on my parents to not be closer.
Thank you -again - to Amy and Christophe for donating hotel points for our stay.
Thank you to my Mops group for the great freezer meals this month.
Thank you to my in-laws for giving me a couple of naps while they are here visiting.
Thank you to Belinda for taking the kids on separate outings. For making them feel special and giving them a chance to get out of the craziness for awhile.
I am certain there are others I am missing, so thank you to all of you who have been praying for us and lending a hand. We couldn't do it without you.
Goodnight.
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